Day 2

Alright...day 2 started out GREAT!!! I did a treadmill workout and beat my stats for yesterday. In 13.5 minutes I upped it to .7 miles. Still nothing huge but at least it is progress. That is what I am striving for...progress not perfection. After that, i did 10 minutes of yoga. I Have been tracking my food on my WW app and also my fitness pal to help track my calories easier.

I was on point ALLLLL day until I put my kids to bed. 👎😞 I don't know what it is about that but its like the INSTANT my kids are all in bed and the house is quiet, its like all rational thought is GONE! I start binge eating. I KNOW I will wake up feeling just awful but again...all rational thought....BYE BYE! UUUUGGGGHHHHHH! Anyone have any ideas or tips they follow to help with this?

SO this morning when I woke up...of course, as I knew I would, I feel like CRAP! blah! But Ill go over more of today in my next post.

I've been having a lot of thoughts going through my head...very damaging thoughts I know but still, they are there. I feel as though I am destined to be overweight and unhealthy forever. I feel I have no will power. I feel......overwhelmed. That is probably the best word to really describe how I am feeling. overwhelmed. I have SOOOO far to go and its hard to see myself getting there. Knowing that thoughts lead to action, I need to find a way to rid myself of these poisonous thoughts. Looks like it is time for some personal development and prayer. I know that i can do ANYTHING through my Savior. I also know that I have a loving Heavenly Father who cares about me, and as silly as it sounds, I know HE wants me to be healthy and to love myself no matter what I may be going through.